9th day. Judgment

I've been living under judgment every single day

sigh...

I don't like being judge

I guess nobody will like isn't it ? 

Judgment wasn't all came from expectation

but 

I will turn my eyes

Upon Jesus 

if they Know me 

they won't judge me in that way 

:) 

but I'm so glad

She's here for me 

She know me 

She defend for me 

She know I'm not that kind of person 

Today I get to see her

People thought I purposely go her church 

just to visit her

I was like,

what ? 

Haiz, I don't like to explain 

I can't control their comment on me

Lord, please grant me courage and confident 

Remind myself that you love me 

you love me like how you love your precious son

Love me like a father to a son

Lord, please don't 

Don't make me look down on myself

I been through Rebellious phase

I know how bad when people around you 

looking down on you

I've been trying so hard

To prove others that 

I'm different from the past

I am free from the past.

You wouldn't know how hard I've try 

to overcome the old me 

even though until now

some people might still have the same judgment

I really 

have to be  strong 

Their judgment 

will not take me down

I will be a stronger person

and 

I give thanks to God.

There are 

still some people 

who trust me.

Thank you.